The Sign Abides
It’s three years now that I’ve held the sign.
I stand there like a fly fisherman. People swimming by the sign and me in the stream that is the sidewalk in front of the building that houses the Department of Education on Chambers Street.
I’m on my third sign. The corners get bent; the whole sign eventually
starts to curl like a playing-card soldier in a vintage Disney cartoon. I’ll
need another fresh one soon.
I see familiar faces on the subway with my sign in the
morning on my way to Chambers Street. I was born in a rural town of 2000 people
in the western part of the state; seeing familiar faces feels natural and right
to me.
Some people on the train try to read the sign through the
bag it’s in, one of those big translucent bags from Kinko’s.
I still like the way the sign looks. The way the letters are
sized. The white space. A period rather than a question mark. A woman who
worked at a weekly paper with me designed it.
The book I’m currently reading on the train, when I’m not
moving the sign like a gate so people can get by, is a novel by a young guy named Ben Lerner who
lives in Brooklyn. I just finished reading his first novel a week ago. In the
new one, there’s this epigraph, just before the story begins:
The Hassidim tell a story about
the world to come that says everything there will be just as it is here. Just
as our room is now, so it will be in the world to come; where our baby sleeps
now, there too it will sleep in the other world. And the clothes we wear in
this world, those too we will wear there. Everything will be as it is now, just
a little different.
To come upon special thoughts like that and words put
together like that are why people read. I stand in the stream every day in the
hopes that the kids who can’t read well will be taught how, so they can have
their own special reading experiences. Everything should be done to see that
that happens.
You wonder why, in the 10 years that the kids are required by
law to attend school, they don’t learn to read well. You think that maybe the
schools don’t have their priorities straight. What could they be doing in 10
years that doesn’t allow for the kids to learn to read well? Well enough so
they can read books on the subway. It’s a sin, isn’t, that so many of the
city’s school kids can’t really read.
Runners and bicycle riders going by the sign give the most
enthusiastic thumbs-up. And some drivers hold up traffic, stopping their cars
and rolling down their windows to take a photo of the sign.
In the Catholic all-boys high school I went to, some of us took
four years of Latin. There’s a Latin phrase, sine qua non, that
means ‘without which nothing’. That’s what the ability to read well is to being
a real student in school, and a real member of the culture when the school
years are done. It is the indispensable ingredient that is needed to be
confidently active in our society. Without it, there’s not much. Almost nothing
really. Some people who can’t read well pass my sign and it takes them a long
time to read it.
Some people, not just foreigners, who walk by don’t seem to be able to read it at all. I worry that the sign is humiliating them.
Here’s what I think some days when I’m standing there with
the sign: The schools know what they’ve been doing hasn’t worked. They know
they’ve failed to teach almost 80% of their students to read at their grade
level. That’s such a failure that they must recognize that they have to make
radical changes to the curriculum. They must know that to do the same thing
another year is going to result in the same failure. But no one dares stand up
and say that. No one wants to say it because they worry that no one in the
city, no parent for sure, wants to hear what no Mets, Jets, Knicks, or Giant,
or Yankee fan wants to hear, that this year is going to be a rebuilding
year. No one wants to hear that. But that’s what has to be done. New
ideas, new blood.
Some people smile with such fervor at the sign, I’m moved.
I didn’t write the sign’s message. It came to me one
afternoon more than three years ago. With the period, not a question mark.
I think the message on the sign could change the world.
That’s really all I should say when people stop on Chambers Street and ask me
why I stand there every day.